Category: random.


So below is an email I got today from a family member.  I have changed names and places as not to give away any more than necessary.  But holy christ.  :

 

I am really earning my Grandma Badge this year…
>
> As most of you know, I came directly from xx to xxx for
> Thanksgiving.
>
> X’s Father had a triple by-pass last week and were unable to watch
> baby when X returned to work. She could not put this off as
> she would lose soooo many benefits, because she pushed her off time to
> the limit.
>
> They put baby in the same pre-school care as his sister. He did great,
> but he came down with a nasty cold and has not been feeling well all
> week. I was hoping I could have left xx in time to cover that shift,
> but it was not to be.
>
> This coupled with the preparation of Thanksgiving dinner at their house,
> (of which her Mother is usually able to help with, but couldn’t this
> year because of the Father’s surgery) and lack of sleep for X, made
> her have a melt down. She went to the doctor and they gave her “happy”
> pills. She is doing much better now.
>
> X showed me all the recipes and they were easy to follow and tasted
> delicious. XX did the Turkey, and X’s brother and sister-in-law
> made some of the dishes as well. We sat down right on time to a
> delicious dinner and had so much to be Thankful for 🙂
>
> On Friday, with my urging, they took baby to the doctor as he was now
> running a fever. The results came back this morning that it is
> pneumonia. Since we caught it early, it a mild case and they are
> treating it with only antibiotics.
>
> The stresses:
>
> Her Dad’s surgery
> No Mom to baby sit and they have NEVER left him with anyone else
> baby being sick (now pneumonia)
> No sleep
> Having her mother-in-law stay with them (that would be me)
> Thanksgiving dinner for her family (mom, dad, brother and wife and ME of
> course)
> And there are still two more coming up. XX has to travel to Phoenix
> for work in less than two weeks for a couple of days. She has to get
> both kids out the door by 7:00 and to day care. She cannot be late to
> her classroom, so it is weighing on her as well.
> Then her Dad is due for another surgery on his Carotid Artery.
>
> After that things should be better.
>
> I will be home on Dec. 1.
>
> Hope you all had a wonderful Turkey Day.

 

I would DIE if my mother in law sent out an email like this to everyone.  Hell, I would die if ANYONE sent out an email like this about me. I mean, yes, the person who the email is in reference to is a nut and I have secretly been waiting for her to crack, but  holy hell.  It’s no ones business that it happened.  And seriously, the stuff she has to deal with is nothing.  Sure, I am judging, but I know this person and she is wound tighter that my hubby, and that is saying A LOT.  It was only a matter of time before she lost it.  BUT STILL.  I’m just so saddened by the email and that the person who sent it is so flipping insensitive.  damn relatives.

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i don’t even know where to begin.  i reactivated my fb account, though i’m still on the fence about it.  i am not engaging the the chat option, as i only really want to talk to a small handful of people and it’s normally the people who i DON’T want to talk to who are online at any given time.  i’m also not really commenting on things anymore or on friend’s walls.  i don’t know why, but i’m just not feeling it so much anymore.  i am really surprised by the amount of people who contacted me when i deactivated, asking me to come back.  i just feel like i am popular on facebook, but just notsomuch in my real life.  i mean, i won’t post what is really going on, as it’s just TOO out there for the world to see, but i don’t feel that i have people to talk to in my daily life about the stuff that i NEED to talk about.  sigh.

like, today, bunny has been in an inconsolable mood.  we had to cancel a trip to the zoo and stay home for much of the day as she was a force to be reckoned with.  she took a nap and had the WORST tantrum i have ever seen when she woke up.  she was even fiercely pulling at her hair.  i had no idea what to do.  i tried holding her, ignoring her, loving her…everything and nothing worked.  i finally walked outside to get the mail and she calmed down.  but it was after about 20 minutes of serious tantrum throwing.

but the day even started out rough.  before 8:30, i had already had 2 cups of FULL coffee spilled; one on the floor and an end table in the living room and the other in bunny’s room.  then there was a huge poo disaster which resulted in a pair of panties — no, not mine — being throw out and bunny being put in a long bubble bath.

then there are all my daily things to tend to.  no, my life is not hard, per say, just today is difficult and i wish there was someone i could just call and vent to.  someone who would listen and wouldn’t judge or tell me what to do.  just someone to be kind and understanding.  even if i am wrong.

also, it’s sort of weird how many people just lurk on fb.  yes, i admit, i lurk, but i used to comment all the time so people knew i was lurking.  sure, pictures are nice, but gee, would it be that hard for you to say something sometime?!  sigh.

i need something cold to drink.

ciao, facebook. it’s been real.

So yesterday after surprisingly little deliberation, I deleted — or deactivated — my Facebook account.  I had been spending way too much time with that Dallas Fort Worth (Dirty Filthy Whore).  I spend hours on it.  Daily.  It was sick.  I think I was just craving social interaction, but I would leave feeling cranky and disjointed more times than not.  Sure, it was great to connect with people, but honestly, the people who I talk to on a daily/weekly/monthly basis are more important to me than the random friends on FB.  Sure, I know each and every person on my friends list, but it’s just not the same as real interaction.  I mean, I honestly have to say I really don’t care how many times someone has worked out or what they made for dinner.  Thankfully I had very little drama but I was just over it.  It just felt like I was too out there.  I mean, I had posted about changes being on the horizon and that hubby got a new job.  Well, a girl that I know told her husband, who then called hubby to congratulate him on the job.  It was just a little too much.  I mean, I know I had posted about it, but it really hit home just how many people have access to stuff.  Sure, I know all of them, but well, I guess since people just lurk, you never know who takes in what information and who will use it.  Sure, most of what I post is rather innocuous, but well, it’s just best for me to stay off for a while.

Plus, it was getting to the point where Bunny would say ‘no more puter, mama’ and that was just no good.  I mean, seriously.  She had to tell me to get off?  That’s just bad.  Clearly, I need to interact with her more.  So, I sent an email out to my friends saying I was no longer on FB.  I got mostly positive responses.  It was nice that someone said I shouldn’t stop since my posts are rather funny, but I do need to at least take a break for a while.  Though one person, a former sponsor, said “we are very addictive people.  it’s all about balance, which takes practice.”  um really?  Gee.  Thanks for the support.  And another friend berated me for letting hubby seemingly dictate what I did, which wasn’t the case at all.  He only asked that I take down the post regarding his job, not delete my account.  But whatever.  I’m glad to be off for now.  Even if I still am twitching a little.

I also changed my yahoo chat ID, which started one of my friends.  I had created the previous id about 7 years ago, before I got married and it was a rather silly name, so I decided it was time for a change.  I guess I am just getting a jumpstart on the upcoming year and starting my changes now.  Nothing is forever, so who knows when I will be back on FB.  But for now, it’s just best that I am off.

on snobbery.

I like to think of my self as not snobby.  I’m pretty easy going and don’t judge.  much.  And while I think money does play a part in happiness, like being able to afford things without totally stressing over them, I don’t think having money is the end-all-be-all to happiness.  It just helps with the comforts of life.  But, you can be totally happy without having money.  Or a lot of money.  Many of the people I know who are less fortunate are the kindest, happiest people I know whereas the people who have money, are not as happy.  Especially the ones who are constantly trying to keep up with the dreaded Joneses.

That all being said, there are certain things that I am quite the snob about.  Here are a few things:

Walmart.  I do not shop there.  Yes, I have tried several times.  Once in Kansas and a few times where I live now.  I cannot stand Walmart.  It attracts an unsavory kind of person that is well, trashy.  And the company itself is pretty bad.  Sure, they have low prices, but they really aren’t THAT much lower than say, Target. And have you seen the people of Walmart ?  It’s not just from one store.  I’m just sayin.

Hair care products.  Oh, I have tried the cheap stuff.  But you can totally tell the difference.  Well, at least I can.  Yeah, some of the stuff makes my hair SUPER soft, but it’s all the extra stuff they add.  It’s not natural healthy hair, it’s chemicals.  I totally will pay more for good stuff that doesn’t make my hair feel weird.  I love, love love Bumble and bumble, but it tends to be pricey, so I used Aveda on a daily basis and save the B&b for special occasions.  But, pretty much all of my styling products are B&b.

Children’s personal care products.  I am totally on the organic bandwagon on this.  I use only the good stuff on Bunny.  No nasty chemicals ovah here.  Johnson & Johnson products are JAM PACKED with nasty stuff, as is their subsidiary, Aveno.  They just have nastiness in them.  I stick with California Baby for her products.  I just feel better knowing she’s got good stuff on her than nasty chemicals that can do damage later in life.  Sure, we all survived, but new things are coming out.  Like eye problems and infertility.  No thanks.  And really, it’s not that much for for these products, so I don’t mind the additional cost.

kate spade.  Yes, I am a handbag snob.  BUT I totally buy cool bags that are not name brand.  However, I WILL NOT buy a fake.  It’s just something I won’t do.  If I can’t afford it, I won’t carry it.  That pretty much goes for any designer.  I’m all about things looking like the real thing, but if they have a label claiming to be the real deal, they just better be.

Good food.  Oh yeah, I can eat pretty junky at times, especially when there is a McDonald’s nearby.  But for the most part, we eat pretty healthy.  I am so tired of people saying they can’t loose weight and they eat like absolute crap.  Now, I’m not saying go vegan or anything crazy like that, but good lord.  All in moderation.  Whole grains are good for you and quite tasty, too.  So are fruits and veggies.  And I’m not saying to NEVER eat sugar, just maybe watch how much.  You don’t need a six pack of diet coke every freaking day.  And BTW, I love diet coke.  Just not that much daily.

Grammar.  yes, grammar.  I cannot stand it when people KNOWINGLY use the wrong grammar.  Seriously.  It just makes them look dumb.  And uneducated.  It grates on me like nothing else.  And there is no joking about it with me, either.  Sure, if it’s in context, then i’m all for it.  Totally for it, in fact.  HOWEVER, it kills me when people use words like they’re, their and there wrong.  Or it’s and its.  And what about you’re and your.  UGH.

I know there are other things on my list of things I am snobby about, but these are the most important.

What about you?  What are YOU snobby about?

random drivel.

I feel like I have been gone for so long.  First things, first, though.  WendyB, I think of you ALL THE TIME.  Every time hubby acts like an ass, I have your voice in my head telling me I don’t deserve to be treated like that.  I do talk back to him, though, so it’s not like he just says things and I take it lying down.  We’ve had some minor breakthroughs as of late, so that’s good.  But good LORD, this road is rough at times.

WARNING:  THE PRECEDING PARAGRAPH CONTAINS TMI.

My ENTIRE family has been sick for the past 5 days and it has been ROUGH.  Bunny and I went on an adventure on Friday and ended up at the local outlet malls.  sooo nice.  We were there for 2 1/2 hours and at the end, I decided to grab a coffee to go and as we were waiting for the coffee to be made….she started throwing up EVERYWHERE.  And she was strapped on my back in an ergo carrier, so yeah.  the vomit went all down my back.  EEWW.  And on the floor.  And all over her.  I was mortified as I had just grabbed my money and put her in the pack, so I had nothing to clean up with!  Thankfully the shopkeeper was super nice and helped me clean.  Then gave me a discount on my coffee drink.  But poor Bunny!  She threw up again as we got to the car.  I changed her clothes, and she threw up again.  I left her in a t-shirt and diaper for the drive home, and she threw up several more times before we finally got home.  It was SO sad.  She’s never thrown up before, so this was an extra big deal for both of us.  I got her into the bath and changed her, and she threw up some more.  She just laid on me the rest of the day, throwing up every now and then.  Pedialite did no good, but regular juice seemed to help.  Then came on the diarrhea.  Saturday it was light, then Sunday it was still light.  Then Hubby got sick.  GOOD GOD, did he get sick.  I have never seen anyone so sick.  It came out of both ends at the same time.  I felt awful for him.  He was miserable.  He had a fever, body aches and was all around miserable.  Nothing would stay down, or in, as the case may be.  Then there were some accidents.  I have never done so much laundry in such a short time!  Then on Monday, he was still awful and Bunny’s diarrhea got worse.  It got all soupy and way messy.  It would be machine gun rapid fire then her diaper would overflow.  My God.  And she was EXTRA cranky because she wasn’t feeling well.  By Tuesday, Hubby was slowly starting to feel better, but was still extra weak.  Bunny, however was still going strong with her diarrhea.  When I went to get her in the morning, she was COVERED with it.  Thankfully, she was okay with taking a bath because wipes just weren’t going to cut it.  I took her on a long drive so Hubby could have some quiet and Bunny fell asleep for a good hour.  It was nice to be out, but I was sad for my sickies.  And to top it all off, it was EXTRA hot and we don’t have air conditioning at home, so there’s that.  I set up Bunny’s pool so she could get some relief.  I prayed that no diarrhea would happen while she was in it, and for once, luck was on my side.  This morning, everyone seems to be back to normal.  Hubby went to work and Bunny just took a solid poo.  I am hoping the worst is over.  And KNOCK ON WOOD, but I didn’t get sick.  I guess someone was looking out for the mama who had to tend to everyone else!!!

OKAY.  TMI OVER!!

So back to my shopping trip to the outlet mall.  Aahh.  It was so nice.  I went into the Barney’s store and was instantly whisked back to my former life of fashion, delicious clothes and fabulous shoes.  The fabrics felt cool to the touch and so decadent.  I slipped my feet into some darling kate spade kitten heals, but resisted buying them.  There were some Theory pants to die for and a darling little marc jacobs dress.  Ahhh.  Maybe one day again I will rock the fashion like I used to.  I have, though, recently made a few purchases at Banana and boy, does that make things  A LOT better.  It’s amazing how a little bit of personal care goes so far.  I had let myself get into the frumpy mom place and I hated it.  About a month ago, I went to dinner with a group of girlfriends and they all comment on how good I looked.  Had I gotten my hair done?  Gotten new clothes?  Gotten new make up?  Nope.  I had just taken the time to clean up.  And really, it didn’t take all that long AT ALL.  Hell, all I really had to do was blow dry my hair instead of letting it air dry, swipe on some mascara and put on a sassy top that actually showed I had boobs, not just milk jugs.  And I did feel Hott.  So, ever since then, I have tried to make more of an effort.  Because, damn it, I’M WORTH IT.

So in less than 2 months, Bunny will be 2.  Holy crap.  How in the world did THAT happen?  And when?!  She has gotten so big!  And is so freaking awesome.  I truly love her more and more each and every day.  It’s just surreal.  Sure, there are rough days.  Days I want to lock her in her room so she stops whining.  Okay, that part isn’t true.  She doesn’t really whine very much and I never lock her in her room.  For long.  ha.  Anyhow, she is just amazing.  But now I want to plan a little party for her and I’m sort of at a loss of what to do.  Last year we did a little garden party in our yard and I am thinking of doing the same this year.  But, now I think I need some sort of theme.  She’s into all kinds of things, but nothing is her favorite.  And the kicker of it all?  I want to have her party on the Saturday before her Tuesday birthday.  But that Saturday, I just found out, is the opening of Deer Season, so hubby wants to hunt.  Um, really?  Yeah.  He can hunt.  And I will still have the party.  He wanted me to change the date of the party.  Seriously?  Just so he can hunt.  Um no.  It’s his daughter’s birthday.  Jackass.  I told him he doesn’t have to do a thing but show up.  you know, like last year.  He’s all cranky about it.  But whatever.  I’m not changing the date because he wants to hunt.

giving props.

I have so many talented friends, really I do.  First, I have to say that I am so excited for my favorite jewelry lady, wendyb, who designed the Cleopatra earrings that Samantha is wearing in the new Sex and the City movie.  How cool is that?!  I have her darling squirrel necklace, which incidentally, I have been wearing for the past month or so along with a beautiful oak leaf necklace and a pair of darling crosses.  One day I really am going to send her the lonely diamond earring I have so that she can make a necklace out of it as it was part of a set and I lost one of them.  Anyhow, I just saw the preview on the television and recognized the fantastic earrings at once.

Next, my sweet friend, Natalie, designs the greatest shopping bags, among other delightful household goodies.  I have several of her bags and love, love, love them.  They are so delightfully handy and eco-friendly to boot! She also has some fun hand dyed ribbon which is just so much fun.

And then there are my photographer friends.  Ah, first there is Christina, who began just as our wedding photographer, then morphed into our family photographer and now is a wonderful friend.  And my other friend, Megan, does such amazing work, too.  And really, my list can go on and on.  I just love surrounding myself with creative people.  I love how several of my stay at home mom friends have also decided to become photographers, like my friend Marian.

I just feel so lucky to know all of these lovely ladies!!

perspectives.

So I watched this gnarly movie with hubby the other day. And I must admit, I watched the whole thing with my mouth open in utter disbelief. Then I made two of my friends watch the movie, too.  I mean, I’ve always laughed at the stigma of being whisky tango, but, well, I’ve never seen anything documented so realistically.  It was crazy.  Literally.  Each and every person in that family is certifiably bat shit crazy.  It makes me so glad that I am not like that.  Like any of that.  Oh, sure, I have my moments of crazy, but NOTHING like that.  But watching that made me so grateful that I have so much in my life.

I have the most amazing friends a girl could ever want.  I don’t know where I would be without them.  Each and every one is so very dear to me.  It’s also amazing that when the shit hits the fan, like it recently did, to see who will stand up and be my friend.  I just needed a shoulder to cry on, an ear to vent in and arms to be hugged with.  And I was met with so much love.  And that’s really all I ask for from my friends.  Love.  Compassion.  Kindness.  It’s funny that the same day that I posted this “True friends don’t care if you’re broke, you’re slightly mental at times, you can’t keep a secret, your house is a mess, or your family is filled with crazies…they love you for who you are. A true friend can go long periods of time without speaking and never question their friendship. REPOST if you are lucky enough …to have at least one true friend ” on facebook, I ended up needing my friends the most. I am so thankful to have friends who are there for me.  Friends who are true and honest.  But while I don’t want fluff and sugar-coating, I also don’t want tough love.  I have had more than enough tough love to last a lifetime.

I am blessed to have two loving cats.  Oh sure, that might sound silly to think I am blessed with having loving animals, but they love me unconditionally.  They just know when things are bad and when I need extra love.  They watch over Bunny, which I know sounds odd, but they do.  They treat her like a little sister.  I love that they know when I need extra comfort.  I love that they cuddle up with me like no one else.  I love that Sawyer will sleep on my head and Atticus will sleep under the covers with me at night.

I am so glad that I am a smart, educated woman.  I am glad that I worked and had a career for a good 10 years before I had Bunny.  I’m glad that if I had to go back to work, I could and would be able to demand a decent salary.  I am also so very glad that I have not had to back to work yet.  I believe my time has been better spent at home with her.  I also know that is not for everyone and that some of my friends are  better parents because they work and don’t stay home with their little ones.  But that is not the case for me, at least right now.  And if I do have to go to work, I hope to God it’s because I want to and not for any other reason.

I guess I like watching movies like that or shows like this to really make me realize what I DO have in life rather than focus on the things that I DON’T.  Watching things like that also make me realize what a strong person I really am and that I put up with a lot of crap.  One of my girlfriends once told me that I was really strong because I do so much on my own when it comes to raising Bunny and that I should be proud of myself.  And you know what?  I am proud.  Yes, I would LOVE for help some days, but I only want help if it comes willingly and not begrudgingly.  I think that also makes me a better mom.  I want to do everything in my power to make sure Bunny has a wonderful, warm and loving life.  And you know what?  I think I am already doing just that.

yesterday was just plain awful.

whew.  What a day.  It started out nice enough as Bunny slept in until 7, then hubby got up with her and I was able to lounge in bed until 8.  I’m really not sure what shifted, but by the time hubby came back from hunting, he was in a totally different mood.  We made a plan to see a feed store a little way up the valley that had fancy chicken coops.  As we made our way out to the car he decided he wasn’t driving,which was fine as it was my car we were taking, but then all hell broke loose.  As I turned on my car, my gas light went on and he went ballistic.  However, as I am the primary driver of my car, I know my car.  And I had at least 60 miles to go before I ran out of gas.  Anyhow, he blew a gasket and went on and on about my financial incompetence, which a whole OTHER story.

Anyhow, since he was seeing red, I said we didn’t have to go, but he got all irritated saying he would have to put gas in my car when he took Bunny for a run later, so we might as well go now.  I calmly explained I didn’t have the money to fill up my tank and that threw him into another tail spin.  We have a different financial um…way of doing things these days.  Suffice it to say, I screwed up BIG TIME when I handled the finances over a YEAR ago and he won’t let go of what happened.  And while I understand that to a point, good God.

Anyhow, his temper was rising as I attempted to back out and he decided I was doing a lousy job so he backed out and still made me drive.  I don’t know if it was to prove some sort of point or what, but I was seriously ready not to go anywhere at all.  We started going up the road and he was laying into me on my lack of financial savvy.  Yes, I admit, I am not the best when it comes to finances,which is also why he handles them.  Anyhow, I started to go to one gas station, which he got pissed at as I would be driving into town.  Um, seriously, town is maybe 2 miles away.  I told him I was going there because they had the cheapest gas.  He made some snide comment and pointed me in the direction of another gas station, which ended up being CLOSED.  Anyhow, we finally made it to a gas station and I pulled in the wrong way, much to his chagrin.

After he put in a few dollars,we were on our way again.  And we literally fought the entire 20 minute drive.  It was horrible.  He is so mean and nasty when we fight.  He even made me cry, something that I never do.  Then he went on saying that his Granny always told him not to trust women who cried.   Oh for the love of God.  When I asked him about the last time he had seen me cry, he had no answer as it has been just THAT long ago.  Anyhow, I was so flustered.  He also brought up divorce. Again.  He thinks that all I care about is money.  And that couldn’t be further from the truth.  I just don’t appreciate being treated like a peasant in my own house.  Many, many things were said, mostly by him.  He fights so nasty.  At one point I told him if it was for Bunny, well, I may not be here anymore.  Yes, I know.  Saying something like that is horrid, but quite honestly, it’s how I feel at times.

Sometimes I would rather be dead that live without her.  But I was not saying that I was going to take an active role in harming myself.  He then went on a tangent on how I need to work the Program more and how I need to talk to my sponsor.  UGH.  For the love of God. Seriously.  Every.Freaking.Time. we argue, he tells me to talk to my sponsor.  Like we can’t just figure things out between the two of us.  Then I again, said maybe I should see a therapist and his response was that I just wanted to spend our health savings account money. Oh.  Right. That’s EXACTLY what I want to do.  Anyhow,things went from bad to worse and he said the most horrid things.  By the time we got to the feed store, he was trying to smooth things over, asking if we were friends again.  He just expected me to forget about everything that had been said.  Thank God for sunglasses.  They hid my tears and I clung to Bunny as we wandered around.

The drive back was more of the same.  Thank GOD she slept both there and back.  I never want her to see us fight, though I know she absorbs everything, no matter how much I try to shield her.  The day just had a bad feel to it and nothing seemed to help.  Hubby finally took Bunny out for a long run and I lost it.  Crying like I’ve never cried before.  I was sad for me, sad for Bunny, sad for my marriage.  I had no idea what to do.  Then I continued to stay on the cross and throw myself a rather large pity party.  I felt like I had no one to call, no one to turn to.  I had no idea what I had done to get me into this situation.  I know I have a part in things, I really do.  Yes, I fucked up our finances a year ago.  And yes, Hubby has been phenomenal about getting things back on track.  But good God.  When will I ever catch a break?  I am so, so over tough love.  I just want something nice and easy.  I am so envious of relationships that seem to flow and be generally in love.  I want that more than anything.  Oh, I know everyone has squabbles and disagrees from time to time.  But I don’t know anyone who has them to the level that we do and that scares me.  Bunny is the most precious thing in the world to me.  I want her to grow up in a loving, healthy home.  Hubby says I always play the victim, and I just don’t know what I am being a victim about.  I guess I need to do more soul-searching.  You know, with all that extra time that I have.

have an attitude of gratitude.

Because I have been really sort of cranky lately, I decided to start the day with a gratitude list.  Here is what I am grateful for today:

Bunny, which of course, goes without saying.

The sun that has finally returned.  It is supposed to be 10-15 degrees warmer than it has been.  Aahh.  I need that.

A long walk that I will go on in a little bit.  I dearly need to be outdoors.

The fresh coffee that was brewing before I got out of bed this morning.  The aroma alone makes me smile.

The wonderful group of gals that make up my book club.

My upcoming trip to LA.

The bock bocks in the yard.  I love that if anyone says the word ‘chickens’ Bunny shouts “bock bocks!!”  and goes looking for them.

The completely unexpected card that Hubby left on my pillow last night.  I have been having a tough time with him lately and the card came at the perfect time and had the perfect sentiments written inside.

Getting back in touch with several old friends on Facebook.  Two of which used to be my neighbors growing up.  So glad to be back in touch with them!

Having a solid group of friends that I can go to with my problems, joys and triumphs.

Discovering the sprout channel.  Yes, I am grateful for a tv channel.  It’s so nice to have something to distract Bunny with that is somewhat educational.  heh.  Though I refuse to let her watch Calliou because he is such a little bitch.  Also, Barney.  There will be none of that in my  house.

What are YOU grateful for today?